Memories

I am stuck in a never- ending nightmare
the more I run away from them
the closer they are
I run till my legs hurt
till I can't breathe
till my body aches
till I break.
I wish they'd stop haunting me
I wish I would forget them
I wish they never happened
I wish and I wish and I wish
I pause, I wait and I hope
I hope they would not ruin me
I hope and I hope and I hope
but they had already done that
so I let them consume me
I let them eat me away
they seep in through my ears & eyes
they travel through my throat
they rip out my intestines
I breath them in
they burn my lungs
they're in my veins
they're in my fingertips
they're in my bones
till all I see is them.